I won't say I'm in Love

For some stupid reason, I've been listening to this song more often than I used to. On an estimate, I would say that I listen to this song 5-10 times a day. Weird isn't it? I am not talking about my taste in genre of course. I have an eclectic taste, in my defense. I am talking about why I am so stuck to this song. And what is more, I actually do not get sick of it. Hmmm..Why is that?

Maybe because I really won't say that I am in love. Truth be told, I honestly do not know if I am in love with someone. Sure, I have a lot of crushes but there was around 2 or 3 I actually came close to courting. And speaking of those 2 or 3, I am ashamed to admit that I withdrew my pursuit just when "the water was actually boiling" if you know what I mean. I have always tried to convince myself that the reason why I "disengaged" was because I am already in love with someone. No . Change that. That I was still in love with someone...

And there it is, actually. I think I have answered my own questions by simply prattling on and on. It won't give my solace, this sudden revelation because it only reinforces one thing. I am still stuck on her...

So as the last line of the song goes, "At least out loud, I won't say I'm in love..." Well, for my case, not even...